i seems so down nowadays

i don't really smile or talk that much

(that's what i realise or maybe i'm thinking too much)


recently there's too much flashbacks going on my mind

always thinking about those

negative stuff

nasty guys

unhappy past

i really hate it to be this way

(but it's like always on my mind that i couldn't even forget)

no matter he or she is good or bad

 it's never easy to forget someone who you've deeply love once

the main thing is that i'm not a carefree person

(wo you ku le! sigh!!)


recently i have been taking care of my uncle

it's really not easy to take care of someone else

especially those who don't even know how to take care of themself

just like me


to me

it's better to keep things to myself

because i've no idea who to trust

don't talk about outsiders

just talk about your own family and relatives

it's already enough


lastly

i just hope that my uncle will get better

really hope i can be that happy-go-lucky girl again

i'm not done talking about those nonsense

but i think i need to end here already

because it's never a ending


goodnight (: